I had no idea that after all this time, it would still be so hard.

I think tonight ill just go to bed and cry and wish that you were here and wish that things were different.

This morning I had an amazing sleep in for the first time in ages, and now eating a healthy yummy breakfast while watching one of my favourite movies. I’m actually so happy and I’m feeling good about today! Making positive changes to my life starting from today and mainly focusing on my outlook and health. I’m sick of saying ill do it tomorrow. I’m going to start now and succeed this time.